Today is my 32nd post.
Thank you for being here.
Writing each day has been grounding and clarifying.
Being read is tender and reassuring.
I’ve done a full month with no attention to performance
Just expression
And I haven’t known how to respond to the pledges readers have offered
Thank you.
Though I appreciate it, I put off thinking about it
Partly from fear, partly from shame, partly from hope, partly from avoidance
When I started this writing
I did so to document a difficult time from within it
I did not want to bypass nor prolong the process
But to be in it honestly and tenderly
Still, I assumed something would’ve shifted by now
At least some minimum wage job would’ve taken me
Some scaffolding to start to build our next chapter
Indeed, things are largely the same
Partly a comfort, partly a cosmic ‘WTF’
Changes are right around the corner, though
My son goes to school in 10 days
We just learned our landlords are selling our house
So we will definitely be moved within 40 days.
It will be fascinating to learn where!
Stay tuned ;)
I have had a hurdle about turning on paid
Accepting the help already offered
And opening the potential for ongoing support
I even have a hurdle about subscribe buttons
I’m lowering those hurdles today
And boy is it uncomfortable
The truth is, i need and want to accept any and all help that’s available to me
One reason I haven’t wanted to turn on paid
Is that paid usually offers something extra for subscribers
I already show up here every single day
Honestly, who needs more?
More feels like too much, and Lord Knows I already feel like a bit too much
And not enough at the same time
This, I know, is not isolated, personal terrain
So as I suss out how my writing might be of value to others
Grounded in integrity, presence and my own process
I’ll rely on our relationship to inform me rather than try to guess
Please: I’m open to feedback
Please: Don’t feel I expect subscribers to move to paid
Please: Know that I appreciate every reader, and every gift, deeply
I have a lot to work through in the coming months
I am grateful to have a forum in which to do it
As I explore how my resources and worldview apply to this moment
I’ve heard that it can be helpful, or interesting
And I’ve gotten emails and notes expanding my own point of view
Which i treasure, thank you
We live in a time of unprecedented communication
So much wisdom at our fingertips
I used to think I had little to add — just reweaving what others already say.
But the sheer volume of voices pulling people into outrage has changed my mind.
I realize: I have an obligation to communicate my love, trust, and grounded inquiry
All of our voices are needed
Kindof like Horton Hears a Who
Every one of us needs to sing the song affirming our presence
And so I am so grateful to have a place to sing and be heard, be joined
I am turning on paid
I am adding subscribe buttons (terrified, of course, that no one else will use them)
And asking those who read and get something out of it
To perhaps share it with a friend
I am uncomfortable
But I am also relieved
Because I know that what i’m offering isn’t noise
It’s a return to center. A modeling, an invitation. permission.
And in a world bursting at the seams, that’s an idea worth sharing
Thank you for being with me as I try
Thank you for your attention, your care, and your support
It means more than I can express with words.
P.S. Nothing changes for free readers. I’ll still be writing every day. Paid options are now live for those who feel called to support this work financially, and am open to what you might like that to mean in terms of additional offerings. You can choose a monthly, annual, or founding member tier—whatever feels aligned. Thank you for being here, truly.
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